was going to order pizza anyways because i’m starving but no place in the wordl opens before 11:30- in the morning and i can’t be awake then because i have ot fucking work
fuck eveerything
okay 2 not 3 cant take 3 or i wont get up for work
50mg still have a refill should get it before i go anywhere take them with me might need them might need pills might need always need pills to
hungry
dont have anything
cant eat
too much
have approximately the energy to lie here and think about dying
no spoons in the drawer
fuck you fuck you fuck you
not helping get rid of the feelings
theyre nto going away
jsut go away
go awayplesaes
i cant keeep doig this
pl ease
so when i get depressed i get like really careless with myself and reckless
should i take my sleep meds with a five hour energy or should i go off into the wilderness with five joints?? or there’s definitely enough pills in my room to kill me and i bet i could bleed myself out before i passed out too
youre a sick fuck a sick sick fuck sleep go to sleep stop forcing it on us
what if i
idk
dont have anybody to talk to not one damn person because?? i dont have friends at work i have people who will ask about my fiance and if i’m high and then they dont care anymore they dont have time for this
i dont blame them i mean its kind of? pathetic??? And useless??????????? to depend on somebody else to get rid of your issues and make your life worth livingbut ha h
aha
i kind of need that i guess idk
out of place alone and cant do anything to not be
there is no point in wasting time on it like?? just
wait for it to die down
my stomach keeps making weird noises and it sort of hurts did i eat yesterday
i had a dream about doing a fuckload of shots and before that i dreamed of meth and before that i dreamed about
dont have permissiont o bleed ache hurt feel
need to breathe
its all in your head
drug yourself to sleep and hope you forget yourself in work
pretend they’re not there long enough the problems go away, right?
right?
nobody’s
nobody cares it’s not
dont have time
time enough for one not both time for
fun
not you
not time not time not time its not anyone’s fault just
just
useless
sleep im going to sleep all ive done is sleep and work hurts too much to be awake because then it aches and there’s nothing anybody is doing to help i can’t do it whoever can won’t do it
hurts to be awake
happy eighteenth year of your life here’s everything you always wanted plus a boatload of issues and nothing you just got will help you deal with them!!!!!
im
dont deserve shit
eurychoric-deactivated20150825:
I’M A USELESS, USELESS, USELESS CHILD. NOBODY WILL COME TO SAVE ME NOW!
(via gurogarden)
hate myself so much god
its really strange to recognize suicidality in yourself when you’ve spent weeks talkimg everyone else out of it
really fucking alone for somebody with a million people who claim to be there
don’t know if I can’t do this or just don’t want to but I
its been so long since I’ve been able to bleed I can’t even breathe
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there are two spots of sunshine in the past bout of sadness and its a little sad to look back and see how happy i was for a second and then realize one person crushed it all
i really should have been smart enough to just walk away like
really, what did you expect
……………………….potential moirail mercilessly and emotionlessly shut down
on the bright side i found out i adore needle play
HE’S
TOO
CUTE
i want to die but not in a bad way just because he’s so precious let me hold him plz
i have a huge fucking pale crush on this boy and i won’t rest until he is the happiest motherfucker on the planet
Friendly reminder that anyone born between 1985-1998 didn’t get their hogwarts letter because Voldemort’s ministry wiped out the record of muggleborns
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